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| The Joys Of Summer |
[02 Jun 2005|03:42pm] |
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Since summer seems to FINALLY have hit the Michigan area, I've been thinking about my past summers a lot lately. The fun parts, sad parts, hard parts, best parts, worst parts.. I got to thinking about my favorite summers, and what made them so great. Some things about them, only certain people would understand.
The summers when I was younger:
- chestnut wars between a group of my friends and a group of my brothers friends
- staying outside until the street lights came on
- riding bikes through the grand river BEFORE people started dying in it
- going downtown to summerfest
- riding in the back of my dads truck before it was illegal to do so
- slip n slides on my kitchen floor
- water balloon fights IN the house
- two words: super soakers
- finding an abandoned lot with a garage on it, and fixing it up for a playhouse
- running up and down the streets in our bathing suits, looking for someone to play in the sprinkler with
The summers when I was between 8 and 12 years old:
- spent the summer in Oklahome with my grandparents
- lived next door to my cousin, Tyler
- picking blackberries
- having apples, pears, cherries, plums, grapes, blackberries, and garlic.. right in your backyard
- helping my grandma raise chickens.. for pets, not food
- being afraid of wasps, and watching my uncle kill them with his bare hands
- not being able to walk on the main street for fear of tire blowouts from the hot pavement
- having to stay inside during parts of the day because there were heat warnings
- the biggest event was the fireworks on the 4th of july
- walking to the bait shop to get snowcones
- watching the kitten get stuck in the pool table
The summers when I was between 13 and now:
- hanging out with friends
- going to Cascades
- pool parties at the Asbury's house
- band camp
- good food, good times, great friends
- having less rules and being more carefree
- my birthday!!
I was going to finish that list, but a thought just interrupted it.. true friends are the friends that still hang out with you over the summer. I mean, it's easy to stay in touch during the school year, but summer takes effort. That's probably part of the magic of summer.. it's so drama free because it's easier to avoid people you don't like. Man, I love summer.
Alright, well now that I made myself want to hang out with friends, go swimming, and have a cookout.. I have to go to work. That's a new thing in my summer. I have a job, so I'll be working all summer, but I will still have more than enough time for friends and fun.
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| Kittens! |
[24 May 2005|12:56am] |
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Here are some pictures of my kittens. Willow's the black one, and also the one that died. Sammy's the other one.
( Kittens! )
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| Cats |
[19 May 2005|08:41am] |
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One of my kittens died today. That says enough about my day right there, and it's only 8:41 in the morning.
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| Kittens! |
[02 May 2005|02:24pm] |
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Alright, here's a story that doesn't need to be friends only. The other day, my mom called me bitching about how messy the garage is and how she wants it cleaned out so it can house the new Harley her and her boyfriend bought. She asked me if Dustin would help clean it, along with me and my brothers, because there was some heavy stuff in there. Well, we knew that my cat, Shiloh, lived in there, along with one or two other cats. We were walking in the garage, and my brother found a dead squirrel. It looked like the cats had just devoured it.
My brothers left to take the first load of boxes out of the garage to the dump, to have them incinerated. While they were gone, I came across a dead bird towards the back of the garage, which it also looked as if the cats had just devoured it. My mom was afraid to look in any boxes, for fear of coming across a dead animal. Dustin and I were sitting around waiting for my brothers to come back, when my mom suddenly got this horrified look on her face. She said that there was something in a box she had just looked in and she couldn't tell if it was a stuffed animal or not.
Dustin went and looked in the box, and he couldn't tell, either. Finally, I went over to the box and looked in, and I stared at the objects in the box, until one lifted it's head up and looked at me. I yelled, "kittens!!!", and I picked one up. My mom was freaking out and told Dustin to throw them in a garbage bag to take to the incinerator. I was upset about that, because they were sooo cute. Needless to say, my mom agreed to keep them over the weekend and then take them to the pound today. Last night while my mom was out, I went to my house and got the kittens out of my garage, and they're with me right now. Their names are Willow and Sammy, and we're keeping them both. Yay, kittens!
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| Newww |
[24 Apr 2005|11:49pm] |
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I have a new livejournal that's going to be friends only. I'll still be around this one sometimes, so if you don't have livejournal, don't worry. If you want to know what's going on mostly in my life, though, you're gonna have to get a livejournal. My new journal is:
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) _paradise_city_
Visit me. Say hi. Ask me to add you.
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| Annoyed |
[22 Apr 2005|12:55am] |
Livejournal is being really stupid right now, at least for my account.
I was trying to find someone to talk to tonight. For some reason, I wanted to talk to a guy. I called a bunch of different people. They were either asleep or drunk. The only guy that isn't is Dustin, but he's at work. I think maybe my medicine was doing something for me so I shouldn't have stopped taking it. Now I'm thinking about stupid shit again and I'm getting depressed. I'm going to start a new journal as soon as livejournal stops being gay.
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| Lion King |
[21 Apr 2005|09:10pm] |
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This is probably going to sound really retarded, but I seriously almost cried during the Lion King today. I hate the part where Mufasa dies. When Simba is like, "Dad, get up!" and "Help! Somebody!.. Anybody..".. It kills me. I was babysitting my cousins today and they're 2 years old. They wanted to watch Finding Nemo, but their DVD player wasn't working, so I went to look for some VHS movies, and I had the choice of the Lion King or Mary Poppins. I figured the boys would prefer the Lion King. I hate that movie, though. I love the music, but I hate it when Simba's all sad after Mufasa's death. Especially when Scar makes him think it's his fault. Poor kid.
I know, I'm a dork. Oh well. I had a fun day, so who gives a shit?
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| Poor Mimi |
[20 Apr 2005|11:41pm] |
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Let me tell you a little bit about Mimi, my old dog.
My mom wanted us to get a dog, and she called around about some in the paper. We found these Lhasa Apso's in Addison that were for sale. They were $200 for the boys and $500 for the girls. We drove all the way to Addison to look at the puppies. My mom said I could pick one out, and I picked up the only girl, the runt of the litter. She was only six weeks old, and I fell in love with her adorable face. We took her home with us and I took a nap with her that day. My brother decided to name her Mimi, after Mimi on Drew Carey because, he said, "they both have squished in faces".
My dog was very protective of all of us. Whenever a stranger came over, she'd growl, and if they showed fear or reached towards her, she would bite them. If they just ignored her and sat down and let her sniff them for a minute, she'd be fine. I left for 3 months one time, and when I came back, she was so excited to see me that she peed all over the ground. Mimi slept in my bed every night, and seemed to be able to sense when something was wrong.
The reason I'm saying all this is because, as most of you are aware, I had to give her up a few months ago when I made the choice to move out of my house. I was worried that I wouldn't be able to find anyone to take her because she was so protective, but there was an old couple that wanted a lap dog. They have a lot of land up at Houghton Lake, and I figured she would be happy there. We gave her up, and I bawled my eyes out that day, and I hadn't heard anything from the old couple until my mom got a voicemail from them the other day. It turns out Mimi bit someone, and the couple is getting sued. I'm just worried that they're going to have to get Mimi put to sleep. I love that dog to death, and if I have to, I will drive up to Houghton Lake and get her and bring her back here myself.
^ That's Mimi on our deck the first time she experienced winter.
I miss my puppy!
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| Not again.. |
[15 Apr 2005|01:35am] |
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"Life is full of rats and snakes. It's your choice who you keep by your side. Choose wisely."
^stolen from Amber, who stole it from a friend.
Ok, I'm not even about to say I'm perfect. In fact, I'll be the first to admit that I fuck up a lot. Shit happens. That's life. My real friends know these imperfections about me, and they still love me. I just want to give a quick shout out to some of my friends.
Amber- I know you have my back no matter what happens. Thank you for understanding me and listening to me bitch. I'm here for you, and I know you're here for me. I heart you!
Allison- I know we exchanged some words tonight, and I know that kind of stuff happens sometimes. Seriously, though, I've known you for going on 11 years now, and we know a lot about each other. We've been there through ups and downs, deaths and births, successes and failures, good times and bad.. and we'll continue to be there for each other no matter what. When I think of you, I think of friends forever.
Dustin- Well, it's been a trip.. I know when I first met you I never thought that you would even talk to me, let alone be living with me someday. We have our moments, and sometimes we get upset, but no matter what, we have always gotten through it, and I know we always will. Stupid arguments can never kill a friendship like this. Thanks for everything.
Sarah- Your wild, crazy sense of humor, and your deep, serious side make you an awesome friend. You know that nobody's perfect, and you don't judge people because of that. I love you so much.
Shannon- The best memory I have of you is when I said I wanted to kick That Girl in the head and you said, "do it!" Even though you don't talk a lot (well you do, but normally only at home), I still know you're behind me 100%.
Nena- You have ADHD big time lol. You make me laugh and I know you always have my back, too. Plus, on the way to and from school you listen to me bitch and complain or just talk your ear off about whatever's going on that day. Thanks.
Wilson- I don't even know you, but just talking to you on the phone every day helps. You listen to me and actually have a lot of good advice. I hope you and your fiance have a great life together.
That Girl- In all honesty, I don't like you all that much. You do a lot of stupid shit. At the same time, though, you still forgive people and have a big heart. You have good points and bad points, and as I said, nobody's perfect. I guess you're ok in my book, as long as you don't fuck up too much more.
In essence, those are the people that I see most often and that I associate the most with. I would have put down Nick, Elaine, Abby, Charlie, Chan, Missy, Aaron.. and all those people that I love so much, but that goes without saying because they're family and they will never let me down. They never have and they never will. It actually brings a tear to my eye when I think about my family. I know that no matter what, they will be behind me. They'll always be there. Even if one of their best friends did something to me, they'd have my back 100%. Some people can't say that about their family and some people aren't as close to their family as I am. I'm more grateful for my family than most people will ever know.
Sometimes it's hard being me. A lot of times I feel like I'll never amount to anything. I'll never make enough money and I'll never be able to be on my own. I'll never find someone to love. At the same time, though, a lot of people have that same problem. I don't talk about mine much. I go through the day, I smile, I try to be upbeat about everything. It takes a lot out of me. I just got tired of people feeling sorry for me, so I stopped talking about it and went to the doctor. Now I take a pill, and it's not really helping. He gave me a higher dosage and it still didn't help. We switched to a different pill.. Still, nothing. I guess I just need to spend more time with friends. Or maybe open up to them more so they can try to help me. If nobody knows I have a problem, then how's anybody going to help me fix it?
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| Wouldn't It Be Nice |
[14 Apr 2005|04:54pm] |
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Guess who has a crush? Yep, that would be me. I don't know what it is about him since I barely even know him, but I like him a lot.
I've been living day to day lately instead of planning ahead. It makes life a little more spontaneous and exciting. Not to mention, if I don't make plans, I don't usually miss out on much because my whole day is free for me to do anything. It seems like out of all the people I know, I spend the most time with my family. I hang out with my cousins a few times a week. I see my brother and my mom almost every day. I go out to my grandma's for the hell of it, and I talk to my other grandma on the phone every day. I like hanging out with my cousins.
Dustin and I had a pretty good talk the other day, and I think it accomplished a lot. It wasn't a big deal, really, but we both had to get some things off our chests and out in the open. I've been kinda busy lately with work and school and all that. I'm trying to get 35-40 hours a week at work, so that occupies a lot of my time. I have an 11 hour shift tomorrow, but I can handle that, no problem. I have to go to work in about 45 minutes or so. A lot of people seem to be leaving Target lately. I don't blame them. If Amber doesn't get a promotion, we're both out the door. I think it's bullshit because she's been working her ass off to try to get this promotion and if she doesn't get it, I'm gonna be pissed.
My house is all messed up. We re-did both living rooms, the bathroom, the laundry room, and the kitchen. We have painted all the rooms and put new tile and wallpaper in the bathroom. We're in the process of putting new carpet in both living rooms and the laundry room. It's a mess over there, and my mom wants to be moved in by this weekend. Have fun with that. Alright, well tomorrow's the 15th and I haven't sent in my taxes, so I should probably do that.
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| Geez |
[10 Apr 2005|08:42pm] |
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For the first time since I've lived here, my computer is up and running. It's taken so long because the computer was just sitting in the closet for a while, then Dustin and I finally bought a desk for it.. But then the internet wouldn't work on it, so Aaron made it so the internet would work.. but it wouldn't work on the computer and laptop at the same time.. so Aaron came over again today and changed one of the cables and now it works. My printer is hooked up now, too. Anyways, I have 2 papers to write and print so I'll write more later.
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[03 Apr 2005|11:08pm] |
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I don't have a ton of time cuz I need to go to bed, but I'm gonna update real quick anyways. I've been out a lot lately just because I'm tired of having been inside most of the winter due to freakin cold temperatures and snow.. I hate snow. So, I've been trying to do stuff outside. Amber and I bought sidewalk chalk the other day. We played hopscotch. I bought a hula hoop, too.
Right now I'm kinda sick. I have a bad cold and I've had a fever off and on for the past 2 days. It should go away soon, though. Nothing really exciting has happened lately. Oh well. I'm looking for a new job. Any suggestions? I want to work at a restaurant. I'm tired of retail.
Oh, I got new medicine. I guess the Zoloft wasn't working right so now tomorrow I start something else. I have a normal blood sugar and normal thyroid, so that's good. I don't want to go to the doctor anymore and I'm tired of taking medicine. Oh well. At least I'm not having as many anxiety attacks. Alright, that's enough, I'm going to bed.
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| Need Sleep |
[23 Mar 2005|01:18am] |
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I'm sitting here waiting for my laundry to get done. I washed it, but when I went to put it in the dryer, there was someone else's clothes in there. Since I live in an apartment building, I don't know who the clothes belong to, so I didn't want to move them. I left my clothes in the washers for a while, took a shower and everything, and came back, and the dryers were still full. I really needed to dry my clothes, so I took all the clothes out of the dryers and put them in the basket on top of the dryer. I'm hoping the person that owns the clothes doesn't get mad, but they've been sitting there for about 3 hours now, so it's their own fault.
Anyways, I've been doing alright lately. Work has sucked majorly, but that's nothing new. School is ok, when I actually go. I've been sleeping on the futon for the past few nights because it's so comfortable. I don't know why I like it so much. Not to mention, it's cold as hell in my room, so I kinda like sleeping in the living room. I have euchre on tuesdays, line dancing on wednesdays, and I'm going to start playing softball pretty soon. I might see about joining a bowling league on fridays, but that kinda cuts my availability for a job, so I'm not sure about that. Euchre is over in two weeks, and I don't know how long line dancing lasts, but I can stop going whenever I want. I really need a new job. I called about 10 places today to see if they're hiring. Now I need to go get applications for those jobs. At least I'm making some progress. My living situation is fun. Dustin and I are getting close again like we used to be before all the drama started. I've kinda been talking to these 2 guys, too, but I'm not sure what I want out of it. I talked to Kevin and basically decided that I love him, but don't want to be with him, and he decided he loves the way I used to be, but not how I am now. I was sick on Sunday, so I didn't go to work. I got 16 hours of sleep Saturday night and Sunday during the day, then I stayed up all Sunday night with Dustin. Last night, I barely slept, and then tonight I'm not going to get to bed til probably around 2:15. That's not bad, though, considering I don't have to be up until 8:30.
So, apparently the transmission is slipping in my car. I guess somethings wrong with the back axle, too. My mom got an estimate done and they said it will be $1200 to fix everything. I was like daaaaaaaaamn just buy me a $1200 car if you're gonna go through all that. It's ok though, because when my car is fixed, it'll be awesome. I'm way sleepy. I need to go to bed. I'm gonna lay down til my laundry is done.
Oh, by the way, I had to clean period blood off the toilet at work the other day. That's fucking sick. I hate people. If you're the one who left a fucking pool of crotch blood on the toilet at my work, I hate you. Learn how to clean up after yourself. Sick fuck.
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[16 Mar 2005|11:02am] |
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It's hard.. just hard..
I don't even know what to say.
Life isn't fair, and I hate it.
My fairytale world that everyone thinks I have..
It's just a fantasy in my fairytale dreams.
Someday it will all work out, right?
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| I can't wait |
[15 Mar 2005|11:45pm] |
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Dear mom and dad, please send money
I'm so broke that it ain't funny
Well I don't need much, just enough to get me through
Please don't worry cuz I'm alright
See I'm playin here at the bar tonight
Well this time I'm gonna make our dreams come true
Well I love you more than anything in the world
Love, your baby girl
I know it's worth all the dues I payed when I can write to you and say
Dear mom and dad, I'll send money
I'm so rich that it ain't funny
Well it ought to be more than enough to get you through
Please don't worry cuz I'm alright
See I'm stayin here at the Ritz tonight
What do ya know, we made our dreams come true
And there are fancy cars and diamond rings
But you know that they don't mean a thing
They don't add up to nothing compared to you
Well remember me in ribbons and curls
I still love you more than anything in the world
Love, your baby girl
*excerpts from the song Baby Girl by Sugarland
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| Good day |
[11 Mar 2005|02:26pm] |
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So, yesterday Amber called me wanting to know if I felt like heading up to Lansing before work. I did, so we went up there and shopped and ate lunch, and then came back to town. I had to work til 11 last night, and then I came home. I was just sittin here being bored when Amber was talking to me online and then we decided that she should come over, so she did. We were gonna have a laundry party because she had a bunch of laundry to do, and I had a couple of loads of mine and Dustin's clothes to wash. We were doing laundry, and we fell asleep around 2:00. We set the alarm for 3 so we could wake up and put the clothes in the dryer and everything. I finished laundry around 5:45 this morning, finally. Amber ended up staying the night. We woke back up at 7:30. Dusty was here and then my phone rang, and it was Wilson. We talked for a while, but then Wilson hung up on me because I wasn't really paying attention to him since I was hanging out with Dustin. I didn't really care.. but anyways, I haven't hung out with Dustin in a while, so I was happy that we were gonna do something. We needed to go buy a desk and a DVD stand. I was supposed to go to work at 12:15 but I called and told them I wouldn't be in until 3:00. They said that was fine, so Dustin and I ended up going to both Meijer's, and Wal-Mart. We bought a desk for the living room and a DVD stand for Dusty's room. We stopped at Pizza Hut and got some pizza. We came home and put together the desk and DVD stand, and we just hung out and talked. He cleaned his room while I rested on his bed cuz I'm way tired. Now he's taking a nap and I'm waiting for Amber to come get me cuz we're going to ride to work together. In my opinion, hanging out with Dustin was definitely worth missing 3 hours of work. I had a good time, and it kinda felt like old times, which is awesome, and happens only rarely anymore. Alright, well now I'm off to work, so have a wonderful day, kids.
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| Whatever Happened To Predictability? |
[09 Mar 2005|11:34pm] |
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I woke up, completely confused, sometime this afternoon. I knew I had been sleeping for a while, and I realized that I was in Allison's bed, but I wasn't sure how I got there or quite how long I had been there. I searched for my phone, to see when my last contact with anyone was. I couldn't find my phone, but I found the cord to the phone charger and followed it to the end, and there was my phone. I looked at it, but couldn't make any sense of the words or names on the screen, so I put it down and looked at the clock. It was around 1:00. I layed there for a while, trying to remember the events of last night. It started to come back to me slowly, and I realized that I had been sleeping for probably about 12 hours, thanks to one too many Tylenol PM. But, I hadn't overdosed or anything, I had just taken the right amount so that I could sleep well. It was the best nights sleep I've had in a while. But then I was bored..
I got dressed, and decided that I wanted a new CD.. so I went to Target. I got a CD, and then I saw that we had the first season of Full House at Target, so I got that, too. I went to Shannon and Nena's for a while. Elaine called me and asked if I'd go line dancing with her. I left Shannon and Nena's, and stopped at my old house for a few minutes. I headed over to Elaine's and we went to the Saddle Saloon for line dancing. Shane got drunk, and the bartender thought I was 21, so he tried to serve me, too, but I wouldn't drink. Shane was pissed that I wouldn't drink. We were all annoyed with Shane, and he could tell, so he left. Aaron, Elaine, and I rented the Exorcist and watched that. Aaron and I left, so I came home, and now I'm watching Full House. Nice way to end my day that started off so confusing. I have better plans for the rest of the week, but I'm not gonna say what they are until after they happen because I don't want to get my hopes up in case it doesn't work out. Later.
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| Sleep |
[09 Mar 2005|12:42am] |
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I haven't been sleeping well lately and my back has been hurting.. last night I took some Tylenol PM because that always works for me. I slept about 12 hours without waking up at all, and it felt really good. I just took some more about an hour ago, and I'm not tired yet, but I'm starting to zone out a little. I'm hoping that I get a lot of sleep tonight, too. I love spring break. I'm watching TV, and then I'm probably going to go to bed. I had plans for tomorrow, but I think I'm gonna cancel them so I can just relax for a while. I'm looking for a new job, and I'm looking for a college to go to after JCC. I'm trying to talk Re-re into going to NYU with me. That'd be awesome. I love Reanne. Alright, well I'm starting to get drowsy, so I'm gonna go.
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